You’re Not the Problem—He Is | Signs of Emotional Abuse

Emotional Abuse

For one friend it looked like her boyfriend loved her so much he wanted to know where she was at all times. For another, a kind man who just wanted to take stress off his girlfriend (asking her to quit her job & stay home). For yet another friend, her relationship seemed to change her personality—she didn’t like to dance or enjoy time with friends anymore. These relationships all turned out to be characterized by emotional abuse.

If the statistics are true, 35% of women have been in emotionally abusive relationships —but it’s generally quite difficult to pinpoint because the abusers are good manipulators (i.e. they tend to smooth over their bad behavior and make you believe it’s your fault).   I want us to talk about emotional abuse—define it and look at some warning signs—in hopes that you will be able to stand strong and not suffer through one of these volatile relationships.

Emotional Abuse is defined as behavior and language designed to degrade or humiliate someone by attacking their self-value or personality. “Emotional abuse is a form of abuse where a person treats another in a psychologically harmful way. It is a silencing attack on the self-esteem of a human being: in the end the victim feels so small that there is no talk-back possible.” (Emotional Abuse, The Silencing Enemy). Several studies have found that up to 35 percent of women have been in romantic relationships that were emotionally abusive, and that such abuse was the greatest risk factor for and predictor of physical abuse (Women’s Health).

Signs you are in an emotionally abusive relationship:

  1.  Makes you feel nervous or like you’re “walking on eggshells.”
  2.  Asks you to change jobs or careers, or even quit a job, because he wants you home (i.e. to control you)
  3.  Is extremely jealous and accuses you of flirting with other men and lashes out when you have a simple conversation.
  4.  Constantly needs to know where you are, who you are with, and what you are doing (i.e. even time with girlfriends is monitored closely as if you are a his child)
  5. Puts you down, calls you names or criticizes you.
  6. Makes you feel like you can’t do anything right or blames me for problems.
  7. Makes you feel like no one else would want you.
  8. Threatens to hurt you, your friends or family—but then says he was just ‘overreacting’.
  9. He checks your cell phone or email without permission.
  10. You have changed your lifestyle, personality, hobbies and/or job because he asked you to.

What emotional abuse sounds like:

“You shouldn’t spend so much on clothes, you don’t have a good figure anyways.”
 “Why are you always disrespecting me in public and flirting with other men.” “Don’t complain about how bad you have it, do you think any one else could date you?” “One of these days you’ll wake up, and I’ll be gone.”
 “You don’t know the first thing about finances.” “You are such a b%&*—it’s a wonder I put up with you.” “I want you to stay home, so I can keep an eye on you.”

Arguably, the most detrimental aspect of emotional abuse is women who are being emotionally abused feel trapped, and they tend to internalize their partners abuse. They believe if they change how they behave, speak, dress, socialize, and work, then their partner will stop criticizing them or flying into rages. As a result, women in these types of relationships gradually lose their identities. (Women’s Health).

If you find yourself walking on eggshells, constantly thinking about how to avoid upsetting your significant other and believing it’s all your fault—I encourage you to take the steps to talk to trusted friend or counselor about abuse. He wants you to think that you are the problem—but I hope you find an ounce of courage to talk to someone today. You deserve more, so much more, and I pray you know how deeply you are loved. I can’t say much about my history with this subject, but I understand what you are going through and I promise it won’t be easy to cut ties, but I also promise you’ll never regret it.

Have you been in an emotionally abusive relationship? How did you get out? How would you advise someone going through emotional abuse?

{Disclaimer: women can be emotional abusers just as easily as men, but since most of my readers are women, I decided to focus on just one aspect of abuse.}

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59 Responses to “You’re Not the Problem—He Is | Signs of Emotional Abuse”
  1. jimmie lee says:

    I was in an emotionally abusive relationship for 4 years from ages 15-19. I became pregnant before I knew how bad it was, obviously i didn’t know the signs at that age {neither did my mom, she never experienced it} I stayed in it because we had a baby but through God’s calling and strength, Christina Aguilera’s Stripped CD and some strategically placed people in my life, I was able realize I was worth more and I gained the courage to break it off. It was hard and for about 6 months he didn’t want to accept it and tried to make my life a living hell. I didn’t let him. He hasn’t changed. He’s not around and its better that way.
    I want to write my story on my blog but I just can’t get it done, for some reason i’m a little scared. But i just shared part of my story here, so maybe this is a step in the process.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Oh Jimmie, I can’t imagine all that you’ve gone through. You are truly courageous for sharing your story with us. Praying God’s peace and strength over you…

    • Jessica says:

      I too have tried to blog about my experiences or even write it all down but I can’t seem to put it all down. Something always stops me. But yes replying to post like this is a step forward!!!

    • tracy says:

      I just realized i have been in an emotionally abusive relationship the past year…maybe not as extreme as som cases but seemed bad to me….i. ended the relationship for many reasons just a few wks ago and still emotionally sufferibg….but he and his mom live in the same house they both have anxiety depression problems they take meds for..they r constantly goung through some sort of drama and arguing then she tries to contl him and it works…he drives her car and chas to get permission toc me which is once a wk ths,t she lets him..he’s 32..hi neverknow what’s going to set him off and when it does there’s np reasoning with him..then the next day he always apilogizes and then it repeats again sometime within the next few days usually…he won’t moveout of there even tho he knows if he did his life wahave a lot less stress
      I thot things would improve in the yr we were in a relationship…he would sincerely say he was going to get a better job move and. b on his own…he just never done it…he works but.not motivated to make his life better…now I’m lefy with this feeling of being btrayed by him because of his false promises..
      i ended it by saying we were friends and if the situation changed msyb we could pursue a relationship in future and because of his emotiobal instabi iflity h called and cried had hisesster text etc…i was nice and wanted to keep an open line of communication betwee..nn me and him…but now he is givin

  2. Maggie says:

    When I was 14-18 I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. (And I have one with my mother but that’s a different story). I dated basically the first guy that showed any interest in me in high school and stayed with him. At the time I truly thought all the things that went wrong were my fault. He raped me because I said no and he wanted to, he was mean to me when I was trying to be funny and I hurt his feelings (unknowingly until the sudden rage), he caused strife between me and my mother because I was spending too much time with him, I alienated myself from my friends to be around him. I did a lot of things that I am not proud of because of that relationship.

    I should have ended things the summer between sophomore and junior year of high school because that’s when I found out he was cybering with another girl that we had become friends with through an anime website. He told me that I was being irrational and that he wasn’t cheating, yet arranging for her to come to California to see him. The day that I found out that he was encouraging her crush, I was at his house with his family and his relatives from Idaho. He showed me a song on his phone that I liked and after he went to play a game with his cousin I went to his phone to find the song. I tried to boot out of the inbox before going to the music but the phone didn’t have an exit option. And I saw texts with my name, with messages that I didn’t say saying I love you, I miss you, and a couple other things that was totally inappropriate of me.

    Should I have ended it there? Yes. Did I? No. I foolishly thought for the next 2 years that if I change and keep asking him to not cyber (not stop talking to her) things would be okay. Even after I broke it off with him we had a class together (I started community college) and every time I saw him he’d try and rub it in my face about how hot girls were and the such.

    If God didn’t let me get out of that relationship when I did I never would have met my current boyfriend who brought me to Christ. Things aren’t perfect, but he treats me the way I should and I’m very grateful for that.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Maggie–oh. my. goodness. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s beautiful how God can bring beauty from ashes, isn’t it? Everything you’ve gone through is absolutely devastating. Thankful to be able to call you sister. He’s a good Dad, isn’t He?

  3. Jessica says:

    I have been through two but the each were so different I didn’t notice until late into the relationships. My first was a four year relationship tht started my Senior year in college. The first year was actually really great so I thought, there was drinking but he wa 23 and I jut alloyed it to be 20 something and partying, but he would cry himself to sleep most nights over hurts from his child hood, I learned he had been suicidal before we met by everyone telling me how great I was for him. After that first year he would get mad if I was late because of being out with a friend, I was too fat. If I brought up his drinking he would bring up my love of potatoes. Silly as that may sound it always turne into a fight, but we were at “his house” so we had to fight by “his rules” I tried breaking it off several times but to no success I was afraid HE would break, why if I caused him to go over that edge. In the end of our third year he grabbed the back of my shirt to pull me back in the room we were fighting in, we were both shocked by the aggression and broke up with him a month or so later to which his response was ” we need to keep fighting to get along” , what it took to break it up was seeing my best friend being treated similarly by her boyfriend. My co workers had been praying for an end to our relationship.

    2 weeks after we broke up I met the man I almost married. He was nicer then the first guy, he wasn’t a mean drunk an didn’t make me fill bad. He told me how amazing I was in so many way an he told other people too… But he didn’t call me his girlfriend for 6 months. We moved in together at about 9 months. I would log on to the computer only to fin him checking out single sites. I would call him on it only for him to turn it around on me that “it’s always the person doing the accusing that is doing something wrong” or ” I was looking for a girl for so and so” this progressed over te years. We split after 3 years, 2 months before our wedding. Thank God!

    I went through counseling and fell in love with God and have over the last few years started being more aware of what is happening around me. It’s hard to her other women’s say “I would need stay I. A relationship like that” but until you have been there you can’t know what you will do. I hope that by reading your blog post anyone in this place will find the strength to leave!!!

    • Jessica says:

      Ps I typed this on my phone so please excuse errora

    • Jessica says:

      Should say senior year off highschool, really was typing away really fast on my break. Sorry.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Jessica,

      Wow. Thanks for sharing your story. It’s truly heartbreaking to hear stories like yours–and I honestly can’t imagine what you’ve gone through. It is interesting that you went through two abusive relationships that were very different from each other–so you “didn’t notice until late in the relationships” that they were abusive. I think that is the hardest part about abusive relationships is that every single one looks different–and most people on the exterior have no idea the abuse is even happening.

      I LOVE that you said you “fell in love with God”–what was that like? How did it happen?

      • Jessica says:

        “How did it happen?” It was a long road. Even as a child I was seeking God. My parents were not Christians but would let me go to church with friends. In Jr. High my parents even sent me to several youth camps! But I fell away in high school. So the second relationship liste above ended like I said two months before our wedding. We were casually going to a local church with good friends of ours. When my heart broke I started going to church regularly. The people in my church picked me up. They hugged me and loved me when I showed up on their door steps crying. They prayed for me. They talked about God’s purpose for me. It still took some time. My heart was mending and my life was liking fuller than ever. There were a few changes happening at work and one day at a church prayer meeting. I walked out to a text with answer I was praying for! Huge step! Almost a year after my world came crashing down on Easter Sunday 2010. This is the short version, maybe someday I will put it all down.

        Ruthie, thank you for this blog and your heart that you share with all of us!

        • Jessica says:

          I deleted a sentence. I was baptized on Easter Sunday!

        • Ruthie Dean says:

          What a beautiful story, Jessica! Praise God for capturing your heart. You are HIS, dear sister! Thank you so much for sharing. I love when people share on the blog, because I want us all to learn from each other.

  4. Ana says:

    Ruthie,
    Thank you for this post. Please pray for my mom who is still in an abusive relationship.
    Thank you.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Oh Ana. Of course I will. Thanks for sharing. Anyone else witness a loved one stuck in an abusive relationship?

  5. Lily says:

    I was also in an emotionally abusive relationship for about four months and three weeks… Strange how the number 4 appears quite a bit in everyone’s story.

    My ex was also a great man at the begining, called me beautiful all the time, told me how much he loved me everyday and although he didnt have much he would cook for me, want to spend time with me and etc. I thought I must have been the luckiest gal in the world… What favor God has had on me. Withing a month he was talking marraige and meeting my family (yes, I quickly got overwhelmed).

    Anyhow I just thought this is it, as a Christian I always thought I would date for a year or less, get engaged and withing two years max I would be married to whomever it is that would date.

    But as the weeks pilled on, he slowly started changing, very gradually… I did not realise unti I was actually annoyed with his attitude. My ex boyfriend would quote scripture about how we are weak and God understands, he actually almost led me to sexual sin. He would also pass comments like I am stupid, I dont listen, I am bossy. I actually started believing him.

    I think the second time he called me stupid, I looked him straight in the eye and said, “you do not ever call me stupid, what the heck is wrong with you?”. He changed the subject and made a comment about how that was not what he meant. Then the demands to know where I was, when I was coming to see him (he barely came to visit me) and how as a girlfriend i should do this and that.

    When I read Maggie’s comments I thought of a time where he “force-kissed” me. I had had it with the excuse of “What I want to do I do not do, and what I do not want to do I do” so I said that kissing needs to be off the table for us because it leads us to want to do me that just kiss. He clearly was not impressed with that. But that day when he force kissed me because he wanted to kiss me and he missed me (forget your convictions young lady, we ae doing what I want to do), I realised that if I married this man he would rape me too… If for whatever reason he want to have sex and I either couldnt (period) or whatever, there is a high chance that I would be forced to have sex because he wnats to… it was all about him. My body was his property, he would touch me inappropriately and when I voiced my concerns, he would play innocent and make it seem like I was over reacting, I let him treat me like a piece of meat sometimes.

    Dont get me wrong, being led does not exempt me from the choices I made to follow and I am equally to blame for the choices I made in the relationship as much as he is responsible for his actions.

    I was convinced, lol, convinced maybe I was actually over reacting.

    But the Spirit in me would not rest. I got to a point where everytime I thought of him, I would get upset and repulsed… :O (this is actually the first time I admit that). I got mad, I was a daughter of the Most High and I “deserve” to be treated like one.

    So after 3 attempts at breaking up with him to no success (its not over until he says its over), I sucked up the courage and told him to his face that I am not happy and I am walking out of the relationship, with or without his consent.

    That my fellow survivors was the most liberating day for me in just over 3 months. I broke all ties with him and knew that I deserve better.

    My road to recovery has not been smooth though, I find myself looking back and wondering “why?”, I have also found myself looking for love in the wrong places, attention, affirmation, something. Its a constant war not to choose wrong, because he, if the guy in the church treated me worse than the guys in the world, what guarantee do I have. I have to keep fighting to believe rhat my Prince is coming and as I wait on God, I will be preparing myself to be the Queen he has been looking for.

    As for now, I am still a working progress, I have fallen a few times and dusting myself up and waking again has not been easy, and I have felt far from God and wondered if I have treated Him with the most profanity that I have become unforgiveable… But “today, as I hear His voice, may I not harden my heart”.

    Love,
    Lily

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Oh Lily. Thank you for sharing your story with me and with my readers. I’m saddened by all that you’ve endured and want to give this man a piece of my mind–disgusting! Please cling to this sentence you wrote: “was a daughter of the Most High and I “deserve” to be treated like one.” It’s beautiful and full of truth. How easily we believe the lie that we are only worth the number of men pursuing us or telling us we’re beautiful. Praise God you found the courage to walk away! What is one piece of advice you’d give to someone in a similar situation?

    • Maggie says:

      Reading your response to reading my comment made me think of times where my ex would treat me like meat. And at the time when it was happening there would be times where I went along with it and liked it, but a lot of times I didn’t like it and felt the same. That I was a piece of meat…It really is hard thinking of those times especially now that I have been a believer for a while now. It makes me wish that I never said yes to him on that day back in 2006.

      • Ruthie Dean says:

        Oh dear. I hate hearing that. But don’t forget who you are–a daughter of the Most High King–and no man can take that away.

  6. Lily says:

    I meant do more than just kiss in the 6th paragraph.

    I few mistakes here and there. I apologise for that.

  7. Amanda says:

    (My apologies for the book below, haha)

    I too have been in this situation – 4 years too long… and he still has a hold on me! :(

    I was 16 and he was 16 years my senior. He should have known better; but instead he prayed on my weakened spirit and low self-esteem. I too turned my back on all my friends to devote my time and heart to this man. He showed me attention I so craved and didn’t get at home. He whispered sweet nothings in my ear but in the quite of the night threatened to harm me if I ever left, saying “If I can’t have you, no one can!” He beat me down with his words until I felt like I was worthless and when I fought back with my words, he fought back with is fists (or elbow, or whatever was easiest). For so long I never thought of leaving, never felt as though I deserved more or better.

    That changed with the birth of our first daughter. I wanted something better for her. I didn’t want her to grow up and think that THIS was how she was supposed to be treated. I tried a few times over the next two years to leave; running out of places to hide I felt stuck. Finally after our second daughter was born I left one morning while he was at work; I moved in with my sister who lived an 1 1/2 away and he didn’t know where… so we were gone.

    Over the next few years he came to visit the girls here and there and when he wasn’t visiting them he was stalking me at night, sometimes breaking in during the day and hiding in my closet at night while I slept (the girls confirmed this years later… he told them). The girls got to an age where I was comfortable (or as comfortable as I’d ever be) to send them to him for the weekend and that went on (on and off) over the next 8 years or so. He had his moments where he chose to be difficult (i.e. making false report to children & youth service, accusing me of not being a good mom, etc.) but overall things went well.

    Two years ago, he landed himself in prison (once again) and was there for the last two years. I took the girls to see him when we could, even when he was released to a half-way house back in May or June. Over the two month period in which I took the girls up twice to see him, he had the audacity to think we could get back together (ugh… the thought makes me nauseous). I clearly, and as politely as a I could, informed him that it would NEVER happen, EVER. Since then he refuses to speak to me at all. Friending his children on FB was his go-to way of communicating with them. My youngest declined to accept, as she’s never really been that close to him; however my oldest (always a daddy’s girl) accepted quickly.

    He took this opportunity to bad mouth me, saying he was going to take me to court, and he tried to sway her into thinking she should come live with him. She began to avoid responding, not knowing what to say and fearing his reaction. Over a week’s period with no response from her, he was angry. Speaking to her degradingly and saying he was going to start a new family if that’s what she wanted…thus saying Good-bye… he Unfriended and Blocked her on FB. That was about two months ago now and he just a few days ago he tried to “re-Friend” both girls (his birthday was the next day). Niether girl has accepted and aren’t sure if they want to see him again.

    I’m not even sure if I can legally keep them from him at this point (we have no court-ordered agreement) but I refuse to make them if they don’t want to. I’m terrified as to what he may do in his rage induced state. I can’t sleep at night, I worry all day long; I’m scared, angry, and confused. I love God and pray often, but am hurt and frustrated that he allows the situation to continue. I don’t know what to do or where to go. I feel very broken and alone. I pray my girls remain strong through this, and should something happen to me that they be well cared for in my absence.

    Prayers of support are appreciated.

    And PLEASE if you are in a similar situation, RUN before it is too late!! Many prayers and blessings to all of you!

  8. Lou says:

    One of my friends recently went through this situation. I want to add in – “threatens to cut/hurt/kill himself depending on your actions” which is another form of maniuplation that is becoming more and more common.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      so glad you added this one, Lou. Definitely not ok if someone you are dating is manipulating your actions with threats to hurt himself.

  9. Janedoe88 says:

    I have a huge concern. I have been serpated from my husband now for almost 2 months now. We seperated beacuse of his contant mood swings and anger at God and others and myself. We have been to marriage counseling several time and talked with pastors from many churches, his parents, etc. We have been a part of small groups and prayer meetings, but nothing seem to ever change anything. I am concerned because I have been to a professional counselor and I asked her if she would be able to tell if I had been in an emotinally abusive marriage or not. She DIDN”T RESPOND! haha. I was so surprised!! She never really ever answered that question at all! So i don’t know where to go to find out if have in fact been emotionally abused or not by this man…especially since my counselor, who is a ‘professional’ can’t tell me :(. Here are a few examples of things I have experienced with him:

    -Saying ‘well maybe I will just leave you. You’ll just wake up one morning and I’ll be gone”
    -He has suicidal thoughts
    -Acts one way in front of others and another when we are alone at home
    -Says “it’s our relationship…our relationship is no body elses buisiness…it’s our marriage don’t your agree?”
    -Makes my sister put a t-shirt on over her swimming suit when we go swimming with my family, because of ‘her swimming suit’. Makes me ask her to put one on.
    -Not being able to talk on the phone at home to friends, because he is always listening in on my conversations
    -Is jealous of me even when I talk with my old friends who are girls, or with friends in church who are older men and women.
    -He has even been jealous of my pet cat at my moms house
    -He has to make all of major decisions.
    -Not allowed to say any encouraging things to guys at all
    -He would claim that I was sinning against God if I didn’t have sex with him.
    -Tells me he has been hurting for years. Then when I say how sorry i am that he has been hurting for so long (in a later conversation) he says ‘what do you mean I have been hurting for a long time?” … …
    -I feel like I am walking on eggshells.
    -He has mood swings from being calm, simple, to crying frantically, confussed about life, and yelling at God and me.
    -He seems to be depressed, but after he has going to a counselor, he is still not diagnosed with anything! He went to a psychiatrist and was given a perscription for depression and anxiety, but the guy spent 10 min. with him and never told my husband what he was diagnost with…(sigh)

    When I finally seperated from him; I had tension head aches. Mini nightmares before being able to fall asleep, was shaky, and had trouble sleeping altogether

    Any insight would be helpful…If you have any suggestions on where to really find out if I have been emotionally abused and can be helped through this, please share. ..

    Thank you for your time,
    Blessings,

  10. Anonymous says:

    I am currently in a relationship which I suspect is emotionally abusive. I need help because I’ve been researching this topic lately and certain aspects apply to my relationship, but others don’t and I just don’t know what to do. Here it goes…

    We have been together for almost 3 years. After less than a year he convinced me to move in with him. I did not want to at the time, but thought it would be good to get the experience of living out of my parents home. At first everything was good and it wasn’t really until this last year or so that I’ve been noticing red flags. One of my good friends does not like him because she said he is too controlling. Since they do not get along I have not talked to her for a long time. At the time he would talk negatively about her and say she was a bad friend for this reason or that. My sister does not like him either saying he is childish and annoying with a bad attitude. I would never choose him over my sister. I love my sister more than anyone in the whole world.

    I feel like everything I’m saying points to the obvious that this relationship isn’t good, but I feel stuck because if we break up then he will have no where to live and I still really care about him. The past few months we have been happy with little to no arguments.

    Here is more info on his behavior. He calls me when on break at work and expects me to do the same. He gives me a few tasks to do while he is at work and if they aren’t done he isn’t happy. But sometimes he is actually okay with it. I never know what kind of reaction to get. I speak my mind and try to stand up for myself. Since I am able to do this with no negative consequences it lead me to believe that maybe the ‘emotional abuse’ is minimal and not done purposely but because I do not always speak my mind.

    Big things he has done which disturb me. Threw my cat hard because he was angry at it, dumped cold water on me while I was in the shower, repeatedly flushed the toilet while I was in the shower making the water scalding hot, multiple times he got out of the car while we were arguing and refused to get back in the car. This isn’t everyday occurrences, but the fact that they happened at all bothers me. No one knows about that stuff happening.

    My feelings about the relationship- We talked about breaking up. I went into it believing that breaking up was the best thing to do for myself and my future, but as we were talking I felt guilty because I don’t want to hurt him or leave him with no place for him to go. I tried thinking only of myself, but I just can’t do that.

    • Ruthie Dean says:

      Oh I hate hearing this. GET OUT! Seriously. He is abusive and it will only get worse. He isn’t your responsibility, but your heart is. Please get out of this relationship, dear sister.

      This hurts my heart to hear…just prayed for you.

  11. Peanut01 says:

    I am 23 years old and 12 weeks pregnant. We dated for 9 months, and he always made me feel like I was walking on eggshells. I had thought he was just paranoid at first due to an ex “supposedly (I say this because after all Ive been through, I realize he may have been exaggerating or lying) and figured once he realized that I wasnt going to cheat on him he would be more trusting. Well how he felt would constantly changing and he made me feel guilty, as if everything was my fault. He would not let me have a facebook (thought Id talk to other guys), If I made plans he would find a way to sabotage them (make me feel bad or like I seemed like it was to meet up w another guy), he would randomly call and expect me to be ready within the time he said and if not then he would not see me that night (15-20mins usually), hung up on me, I wouldnt tell him what I bought for Christmas and he said if I didnt he was ending things and wanted me to leave, broke things off atleast 1-2 times per month, called me horrible names, told me to quite jobs, wouldnt let me shop while on a business trip for a wk, wouldnt let me do things w friends, one week he would want to hangout alot then the next he would ignore me or even ignored me for days when he would feel like it and went through my phone. I tried to talk to him about it and he seemed to get better for a few wks but then we found out that I was pregnant. At first he was really happy, then told me if I did not get an abortion he wanted out and ended up packing up his things. Well he came back but wanted me to tell 90% of my friends that we couldnt be friends anymore and I had to call them in front of him or he was leaving me and the child. I also had to delete my facebook or he would not see or talk to me until I did so. Then he started calling me horrible names and I decided to end things. He has called me several times crying saying that he will do anything and wont ever do these things again that he wants us to be a family and he realizes what hes done is wrong and will talk to someone etc… But he has said very similar things before and always goes back to his ways, the only thing he was better about was the name calling/comments but the controlling/manipulation and selfishness always finds its way out. I dont think I can nor should ever get back together with him.. Even if part of me cares and we will have a child together. Just wanted to share my story.

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  13. tish says:

    Hi all,its the first time I’m able to speak about my stor but the truth is I’m looking for someone to say I am making the right decision,I have decided to leave my marrige to a man I know for ten years and married to for 3years which I have a son with,from the time I have been with him,its been back and forth,he used to pyhsically abuse me at first but hen its 9years of long hard cruel heartless words I have put up with,from name calling to degrading,to accusationss contiously over and aover,I have reached the point where I can’t take it anymore and just want out and peace,he has promised that hed changed but within me I know its not the truth and he will always find somtinnew to accuse me of,I’ve actually become the one that physically hits him because I can’t stand what he says to me,he njoys seeing me going into a rage and having a fit about what he says to me,I can’t sit and be quiet it will be I’m thinking of another man,I can’t say I’m tired or want to go to bed it means I don’t want to be intimate with him,when he is intimate with me he has said many times it does not feel right I was with another ma,he slps with me like I’m a hoe and just does anything with thinking how it makes me feel,he wants to know where I am all the time,checks my phone and even wants me to leave work, besides all that he makes up his own scenarios to say I’ve been doing things while he is away at work on the weekends, he also has accuse me timelously ofhaving his friends,my own friens,his cousins,my own cousis boyfriends,he has aways found something new or someone new to pick on,now that I have had enough he doesn’t want to let me out of this,cause he feels I have stuck it out so long what’s so hard for me to forgive him now,says it can’t be cos of all the things he has done there must be somr other reason behind it,what hurts me the most is that we never looked at what we were putting my little boy through all this time,I’m living with my mum currently and need to make a decison about whow to move forward,we have seeked professional help for him which he has been to twice and doesn’t want to go back,I can’t do this anymore yet I still fell bad and guitly for wanting out….

  14. Kindhearts says:

    I was with an emotionally abusive man for two years- he was very heavy into drug use and alcohol, and no matter how many times I’ve tried to help him, it failed. It makes me laugh now that I thought my love and support would be enough…nope!

    I was accused of multiple affairs (and on a monthly basis- sometimes weekly. He would accuse me of wearing more makeup for somebody else, going over to another man’s house when I went over to my parents house) I was called very nasty names, he threatened to hurt/kill himself if I left, he also threatened ME that he was going to tell the police that I assaulted him if I ever called them (something that isn’t true- I have never struck him even though he has done it to me) One time I tried to leave him, he walked (no car) to the nearest store and called me on a payphone telling me to “stop trying to act tough and come pick me up, you [insert bad name here]”

    Sometimes he would get angry at me when he was driving and purposely speed up and act like he was going to crash the car (going 100km in a 60km zone) and when I begged and cried for him to slow down, he would say things like “I’m the f**king man in this relationship, you don’t tell me what to do”. So many more things I could say he did to me, but it makes me very upset to think about…in fact, nobody REALLY knows how badly he has hurt me. I haven’t admitted everything he has done yet, I’m planning on seeing a counselor soon so I can talk about this. I’m not sure what I’m feeling. Depression? Anger? Trauma?

    I look back on it now and realize how damaged I am from that…nobody and I mean NOBODY ever deserves to be treated this way. I used to be one of those girls that think this will never happen to me! Wrong. It can happen to anybody! I realize how fragile I am and how easily I let him come into my life and basically control it for two years and I am sure he wasn’t sober half our relationship anyway. It’s a sick feeling.

    How I got out? Well, after having to move back home (because I had no where to go), I ignored every single phone call he made. He eventually gave up calling me after I gave him no intention of ever speaking to him again. Boy that was hard, it took almost a month to get him to stop.

  15. Anika says:

    Hi I’m 20 and after I got pregant I felt like my life was over because im in a emotional abusive relationship with a guy I real love and it’s our first BBY I’m due aug 20 2013 I jus hope he changes sumtimes ion b knowing Wat to do when he gets emotional abusive wit me I b scared sum times but I pray and pray

  16. Distraught Mom says:

    I believe my married daughter is in an Emotionally Abusive relationship. He is a manipulator and controller. He has moved her far away from all of us in her family. He undermines everything she was taught and valued growing up – is superior to what her “ignorant parents” taught her. And the worst thing is watching her NOT see it yet. She thinks his intense attention is love and affection, not obsessive control.
    I feel so helpless. And I fear I am watching her drift further and further away.
    I am committing it to prayer, and asking the Lord to work miracles. But I must admit it overwhelms me some days beyond belief. The tears just flow.
    Thank you for this source of comfort and encouragement. And thank you for the example of all who have gone before and been brave enough to share.

  17. Emily says:

    Thank you for this post. I was also in a relationship like this….like so many girls, unfortunately. The first night I hung out with him we kissed and he said I don’t kiss a girl unless I think I’ll marry her….the first night! Talk about thinking you’re serious when you aren’t. He started talking about engagement and marriage 5 months after knowing each other, but not 5 months of dating. We met in October 2010 but started dating in February and he said he was saving up for an engagement ring. I later learned he probably said that to make me think we were more serious than we actually were and to keep me in the relationship.

    We broke up 7 times in a year and a half…he used scripture to persuade me to get involved in sexual sin…he said I see us as married in my eyes so it’s ok for us to do this. Like this post says, I constantly felt like I was walking on egg shells and that anything I said or did would make him mad. He was constantly jealous and getting mad over everything. It was so emotionally exhausting. BUT…God used that relationship to bring me home to Himself….He saved me through that relationship. That guy invited me to church with him and I learned about Jesus and God’s love for us and made the decision in July 2011 to stop living for myself and start living for God. That relationship was one of the hardest things I ever went through but God used it for the greatest thing ever….to bring me to Jesus! That guy and I broke up March 2012 and I haven’t dated anyone since…not because I won’t ever date anyone. I can’t wait to date and marry a strong godly man one day, but I’ve just been using this time to grow in my walk with God. He truly does use bad things and turns them into wonderful things. Part of me is thankful I did experience so I hopefully never will again, having learned what that relationship is like. And I am so thankful God pulled me from that relationship and closed the door on it. :)

  18. Christina says:

    Sadly but true.. I’am going through one abusive relationship currently and I don’t know how to break it off. I really really loved this man like I loved no other man, but whenever he is mad he says bad things about me, my friends even my PARENTS !! I’m emotionally exhausted now, he tells me to fuck off, bitch, whore, slut any abusive thing that comes to his mouth when he is angry. I’ve told him a zillion times to not say me things or call names when he is mad. He makes issues out of every minor thing that I do even the way I talk, walk, sleep.. every single thing. When it comes to him he gets totally defensive and starts blaming me for my wrong doings instead of looking on to his own mistakes.. I tried breaking up several times but my guilt takes me back to him thinking that I misbehaved with him and did wrong :(

    • Jessica says:

      Christina ,

      I wish I could send you the strength to get out. I will pray you find it. I was there as you can read. At the top of the post. The first abusive relationship I was in (I know scary to say it wasn’t the only one) . He called me horrible names when fighting and. Said hurtful things about my family and friends. They are the kings of guilt. When I finally had enough and broke up with him I will admit I had to do it over the phone at a friends house and I stayed the night with her and drew my strength from not being alone. I should have also turned my phone off. He tried the next day to convince me I was wrong but thankfully I had had it. When you find your strength I really recommend spend ing atleast 6 months to a year alone with yourself and God! It is the only thing that will heal you. I few commend reading “captivating” by Stacci Eldridge along with ” Praying for your future husband” and. Of course “”Real Men Don’t Text” ! After my second. Abusive relationship I dated off and on and almost settled for ok relationships with nice guys but not the right guys. For a year or two but the third year God kept me single and wow did I grow so much. I found this blog, I spent time finding out who I was on my own and when I met my husband. I was actually shocked that a guy could be so kind and loving and. How I would feel being second to God! I promise it is so worth the pain of ripping off that bandaid. God loves you and he has so much more for yor life than you know.. Again I pray you find yor strength and that you see the open door and walk through it into your future , it won’t be easy like so much in life the best things take time and sometimes hurt.

      • Jessica says:

        I can’t remember who wrote “praying for your future husband”. And I am sorry again I am typing on my phone and it auto correct and adds punctuation when I type to fast.

  19. kim says:

    First of all i want to thank kristina for the post she made on how dr khakani helped her in bringing back her lover before christmas.At first when i saw the posting i was so happy and in the other hand so scared,That this might not be real, Then i decided to give it a try in which i contacted dr khakani and told him how my lover left me for another lady for the past 3years and i have been lonely and depressed without him,So i told him if he has helped anyone called kristina and he said yes, that was the lady he helped in bringing back her lover before christmas.i said good and i told him that if he can help me in bringing back my own lover,He laughed and said once i have contacted him that my problem will be solved.He said that my lover will be back to me within 24hours and do an unexpected thing for me. i said really, Truly when the 24hours was completed i got a text from someone saying am sorry then i decided to call the number i saw it was my lover Steve voice.i was so happy he was begging me on phone, That he is ready to do anything that will make me happy in life,So i told him to come over which he did,As he was coming he came with a brand new Car as gift i was so happy and made me had access to his account to prove to me that he is not going to leave me for another lady,Am so happy today and am also thanking kristina for posting this early.Dr khakani you are truly a man of your word. He can also solve any kind of problems in this world. Friends you can contact dr khakani on his private Email khakanibestsolutioncentre12@gmail . com or cell phone (+)2348062216903

  20. Sam G says:

    Hello,
    I just stumbled upon this site, and I wanted to share my story. I am so sorry to read what other people have shared, I really am. You are all brave and courageous, I know I am not.
    I was in a friendship with someone for over 8 years or so from University. For many years, I have suffered from Anorexia Nervosa – and hit rock bottom, self harmed, and have had a slow recovery. Anyway, I am rambling, so sorry. Um, I thought this guy, this friend really cared about me, but he always made negative comments, and really made me hate myself. He moved away, but we kept in contact via email. He said he was falling in love with him, and I believed him. It was stupid. Nothing ever happened. He kept telling me he loved me, but he was seeing other women, and was having relationships with them. Even when he was with them, he said he wanted me, even though he was always rude to me. I stopped contacting him.
    A few months later, he contacted me saying he dumped her and was alone, and heartbroken. He acted all nice, then a few weeks found another girl. He tried to sweet talk me and I said no. However I was stupid to fall in love with him. I mean, it is stupid, and yet I could not stop feeling this way.
    A few years ago, he found this girl and his behaviour changed for the worse. He became more aggressive to me, bullying me and making me cry and hate myself. I could not tell anyone, I felt so ashamed. I felt so alone.
    He told me to “have a nice life” and never talk to him. I left it for about 5 months, but I missed him. I think it was because I convinced myself he loved me – stupid right?
    We got in contact again. He told me he wanted me to be happy, and was forcing me to meet people and have sex. I am a virgin and have never had a boyfriend or relationship ever. He was trying to force me into being a lesbian. No matter how many times I said no he would never listen. Anyway, I told him to stop his aggressiveness and to just respect my wishes. He said he would.
    However, he put my details on a dating website, and a picture of me when I was anorexic. We would walk when I was anorexic, and would take pictures of ourselves. He used these pictures and set up this profile. I never even knew about it, until people started ringing my house, knocking at the door, and sending texts etc – it was scary. Men and women contacted me and were very rude, saying hurtful comments from “You are ugly” to “You are fat”.
    From having anorexia, I convinced myself this was true, and they were right, I am fat, ugly, repulsive and unattractive.
    I found out where they all came from, from this particular dating site, and I stumbled upon my details and pictures being used by this guy. I contacted him, and he said I am repulsive.
    Hearing that really hurt me, and I cried myself to sleep for many nights. I could not tell my family – I am so ashamed of myself. I have been stupid, and yet I don’t know why I still have feelings for him. I feel so weak, and I know I am.
    Do you know what the worse thing is? I really want to contact him even now. Even though he has hurt me, why do I still want him in my life? I hate myself.
    I have not self harmed, even though I have wanted to, and I know this is not the same as what many people have written, and I am sorry if you hate me, or think I am weak and useless, and have not suffered the same as you – but I feel so hurt, alone and isolated. I don’t know what to do.
    For anyone reading this, thank you for taking the time to read this – I know its drivel, but I feel so ashamed. I did not deserve to be treated this way, and I am embarrassed with my feelings.

    • Amanda says:

      Oh Sam!! I am so sorry that you feel so unworthy. I too have struggled with self-love. It is this lack of love for yourself that allows you to fool yourself into accepting this kind of treatment. You DO deserve so much better. Whatever it is that you have been through or wrongs you may have done, God loves you SO much. He truly wants you to me happy & treated kindly. The fight with self-loathing is a daily battle, I know I’ve been there and sometimes I still visit this very dark room in my mind. You can overcome it and you DO deserve better.

      Please email me anytime if you’d like to talk ever. (Manda_L_a@yahoo.com). God bless you sweetie!

  21. Steph says:

    I have been in two abusive situations which still haunt me.
    My very first ‘love’ (dated for just over a year) had another girlfriend at the end of our relationship. He emotionally, physically and sexually abused me. He then began to stalk me and torment me for the next four years, and also tried to kidnap me. I contacted the police when I gained courage and was told that there was not enough evidence and nothing came of it.

    I then had a friend who was so kind to me for a few years. He was so so over the top nice to me. He also always said how much he hated my ‘first love’ for all he had put me through, and he wanted to see justice done. But the constantly tried to control me as a friend and we would fight all the time. He then started emotionally abusing me, constantly putting me down, lying to me, pointing out all my flaws, that I am NOT a strong person, that I’m this and that. Then apologising profusely.

    I have escaped both situations, and I have an amazing boyfriend now. But why do I still want these two men to know how ‘happy’ I am? Why do I feel like I wasn’t good enough for these two – they’re both ‘happy’ in relationships. What was wrong with me that I copped abuse but these girls seem over the top happy with these men? I am happy in my relationship and I love my boyfriend, but these two have ruined my self esteem. The memories haunt me.

  22. first I would like to send prayer out to all the ladies that endured such horrible things by these SO CALLED MEN! God loves us and has a plan for each and everyone of us.

    well, i don tknow if im in an abusive relationship or not, i have been with this man for 10 years we have 2 kids and have been married for 3 years now. In the beginnning we fell in love. with in the first 2 years he was physically abusive. we both were. then we found god and began changing. we ended up getting married after 5 years and had another child. it was going good but now instead of physically abusing me he does it verbally and emotionally. he doesnt call me names but he would always blame everything on me! every argument it was my fault, he never apologized for anything he does, maybe once every few nonths. I am the one always apologizing and trying to win him back. i have changed i am a sweet woman and i dont do the things i used to do. but he makes me feel horrible. like i cant do anything right, everything i say to him he persives it as disrepectful. he throws scripture at me but doent follow through himself. I dont kjnow what to do anymore. I belive we can fix this but maybe im blind. maybe he doesnt even love me and is just using my weakness as a ride through life.. because I TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING! so how does a woman that has made changes, has an education, alsways kept a job and provides for her family and loves god with all her heart, still get treated like dirt?? we cant even have a conversation anymore. he says things like i hope my kids dont pick a woman like you. (i have 2 sons with him) he wants me to do all the changing, which i have for the better. he just downs me in every way. saying all what I DONT DO! WHEN I DO EVERYTHING! i cant believe this. I am so stressed out now because of everything, im trying not to break down and believe him. I am a strong woman and a good woman, i don t underatand why he is acting like this and thinks its okay?? when he loves god too? someone please help me with advise, i am so confused and we tried consouling before and the pastor even told him a few times what he does isnt right, but he always turns it around on me… I cant take it anymore.
    God bless you all.

  23. Becca says:

    Martinez- it’s not you! Physical and emotional, both are abusive traits. You have been the stronger person, by changing the way you think and control your life! It is not your responsibility to change him! He is weak and feeds off your strength and be careful because he will strip you down emotionally and you will be left with low self esteem. With no disrespect to you, sometimes people that are in an abusive relationships stay and continue thinking that some day they will Change…. Or that we can help, (co-dependent) The odds of that happening is close to null. It’s easier said than done, but you need to walk away….it’s a toxic relationship, and it will trickle down to your children. The cycle of abuise will continue through your children, They will also be in abusive relationships or be the abuser. Don’t try to understand it, by doing that, you will continue to endure it. My best advise to you, is to break the silence…..once you do that, you’re one step closer in building the courage to leave. And as clear as it is day and night when your ready, you will know when it’s time to leave. Prayers to you and your children. And prayers for your husband, as the lesson he will learn will be devastating. But rest assure, once he know he can’t continue to abuse you, he will find ,someone else’ to do continue the cycle with.

    Respectfully – ‘someone else’

  24. AMaria says:

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  26. Jason says:

    I am a man and I know what it’s like to be the abuser and to be the abused . Men act like this for a few diff reasons here’s my point of view ! Men have a image of how they want they want their woman the one they are with to be in their head and when they meet u and u hit it off they automatically think that ur the one so they don’t hold back fall Inlove and begin to see that wait hold on u weren’t doing some of these things in the beggining of our relationship n if u were doin some of these things he over looked it becuz he was tryin to win u over ! Men can be very selfish and so can women no ones perfect it’s a working process ppl need to app sayin opposites attract becuz they really don’t u can’t possibly be with some one who’s a party animal and be a home body n be happy in your relationship u have to share the same intrest it’s all about COMMUNICATION if u can’t tell ur man the things he’s doing wrong n how bad it hurts u then that’s more of a problem then the actual problem women have to take responsibility as well relationships are about love giving caring understanding n so much more u don’t get Into a relationship to only worry about how u feel it’s about your partners feelings to that’s what ur with him for !!!! Sit him down n ask him y does he feel that way talk to him not cry ur self to sleep COMMUNICATE men have feelings n ALOTTA times we jus wanna protect the women we love n it often gets confused I’m not perfect but I love my women enuff that no matter how many times I messed up I’m still fighting to get it right becuz I wanna be perfect for US give the man a chance to change n if he doesn’t want too then move on !!!!!! Men have hearts too lady’s !!!!!

  27. scott says:

    sorry but there’s something wrong with this article here what rubbish if your partner is flirting with other men even more so in front of you this should be challenged men have feelings to and if you are doing this kind of thing to your b.f then you have no respect for the relationship in the first place…

    • Angie says:

      I think the point is, emotionally abusive partners are so controlling, possessive and manipulative that they “think” you are flirting when you are not and/or simply accuse you of flirting to control you, or make you feel bad about yourself.

  28. Ashley says:

    I am 30 years old and i need a way out..
    I’m ashamed to say that I have been in an emotionally
    abusive relationship for over 5 years. I have tried to get away.
    I have left several times to stay with parents and even a friend
    for months at a time..but he is so manipulative that It’s impossible
    not to forgive him. It even got physical a few times and I had nowhere to go
    and he knew that! So he kicked me out on the street in the middle of the night.
    I had to sleep in my car. I feel so trapped because he has all the money,
    so I have no other choice but to stay. I’ve tried to work but he’s forced me to quit
    the last 4 jobs I’ve had. I’m also a student, going for my computer programming degree
    but his outbursts have caused me to miss too many classes. He’s going to
    inherit 15 million and he makes 100k at his job but he blows it all gambling on sports!
    And he refuses to pay for my school or any of my meals. It sounds horrible when I type
    it all out. I’m so scared and depressed.. I can’t believe I would allow myself to be put
    through this torture. To top it off our sex life is non existent which means
    he’s cheating on me or simply not attracted to me at anymore. It makes me sick.
    I’m 5’5 and 120lbs and gorgeous but not good enough for him.
    How do I get away?? I need help.

    • Amanda says:

      So sorry that you are going through that. Check out http://www.thehotline.org/ for some tips and resources. At the end of the day though it comes down to you. You have to be willing to walk away. You are worth so much more! God wants so much better for you. Praying you find an escape and the strength to let him go. You can get through this.

  29. Confused says:

    I am going through the same thing… I feel useless and scared. But still i am here. I have been with him for 6 years. Live together for two…. He hasn’t been working due to an injury so he is on workers comp. i work full time … I am a teacher… Hust graduated with my second masters degree. Two night ago we got into a huge argument … He tends to get upset very easily… He got upset because he told me to let my mom know to not send anymore food because we are moving to another apt… However my mom gave me food for the week and he went off! He said i dont respect him… Kept telling me to stfu… Thats no surprise everytime he gets upset at me he always curses and yells at me… By this time i am already shivering and blaming myself for accepting the good my mom gave me .. I even called myself stupid… Things got worse i confronted him by telling him that i am
    Tired of his cursing and arguing over small things (last week he argued with me because i did not put his good in a glass tupperware because his always goes on a plastic one). Anyhow… As i confronted him he kept telling tonto stfu… I was so angry!! I got up and then he grabbed me and shoved me to the corner of the living room.. Pulling my ear .. Yelling and cursing… Not letting me go anywhere… Grabbed me by my neck… Im already crying.. Scared.. Telling him to let me go… But hes not … He claims i am
    Not sweet.. Told him he is always so grumpy.. Hes always on the phone .. Told him i saw his account online and hes acting like a single man! He denied it… I ran to the bedroom he shoved me to the corner of the bedroom.. Pointing at my forehead.. Saying u are not going anywhere.. To stare at the wall … Said im a dummy .. A fucking retard… I have two masters and i am still dumb.. That no one is going to tolerate me… That this is y my ex cheated on me.. This is why i wont last… I tried to get away.. He grabbed me and started kissing me… I said no get away u are crazy.. However i felt for it… We had sex… Then when done he says that i didnt listen to him about bringing food from my mom… I was confused!! We started arguing again…! He grabbed me… Had me in bed and shoved his hand in my nose that it hurt a lot and made me cry.. He covered my mouth so i dont yell..then he headbutted me and called it an accident… I cried and yelled because it hurt so much.. He covered my mouth again… He got up.. Got me some water… Got me an icepack.. Asked me if i wanted to eat.. I was so angry… He took a shower.. He ate … I was getting ready to go to sleep and then he comes and says ”
    U know i think its pretty fucked up what u said about my family” (because he doesn’t have communication with his parents or brother/ sister.. And i had said no one is there for him
    Except me) he told me to shut the fuck up again and we haven’t spoken since then… I am seeking help… I m
    Afraid to telll my parents because they can call the cops … I feel ugly.. Retarted… Like a loser… Usually he takes me to work but today i asked my friend to take me… I feel like my life is coming into pieces and i want to escape… Please help… My heart and brain hurts… I am crying outloud but no one can hear me!

  30. mary says:

    My name is Mary and my ex-boyfriend dumped me 8 months ago after I caught him of having an affair with someone else and insulting him. I want him back in my life but he refuse to have any contact with me. I was so confuse and don’t know what to do, so I visited the INTERNET for help and I saw a testimony on how a spell caster help them to get their ex back so I contact the spell caster and explain my problems to him….. he cast a spell for me and assure me of 3 days that my ex will return to me and to my greatest surprise the third day my peter came knocking on my door and beg for forgiveness. I am so happy that my love is back again and not only that, we are about to get married. Once again thank you RE UNITING EX SPELL TEMPLE caster, you are truly talented and gifted contact his email: OLOKUNSPELLCASTER@GMAIL.COM All thanks to the source of my happiness{DR MUKU}

  31. Freedom says:

    Hello everyone, finding this blog was like discovering water in the desert. I was in a suffocating emotional destructive relationship and basically held captive for years, until one day I met someone that instantly warmed my senses and allowed me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was able to escape the relationship but it wasn’t easy, I was an emotional basket case and I lost the new flame too, which was expected. I realized that I was only a shell of a person, I didn’t feel confident to order a coffee – even though I had a university degree! So a decade has passed, and I am a top executive in my field and have a wonderful family, and I am producing a movie on my experience to inspire women like you, like me around the world, that no one has the right to take our freedom.

    My story compelled an Academy Award winning Director (USA), to write and direct the film.

    I would love to hear from you all, and to have your moral support. It’s been really tough to open up about the details with this person, I’ve cried a lot, and have suffered reliving the past in order to create the script… But it will be worth it.

    dolcevita7@hotmail.com

  32. Torquoisesky says:

    I was in an abusive marriage for 10 years and 8 years ago we separated> I didn’t have a resource like this 18 years ago and wish I had…..I didn’t even think he was abusive, but see now he IS a classic abuser.
    1. Makes you feel nervous or like you’re “walking on eggshells.” -I did feel this way all the time! I was taken aback by his first attacks….he changed so completely after our wedding. I was an extroverted, high energy fun gal when he met me (I was in college and he lived in the town I moved to). Once we got married, he accused me of being a flirt/slut/etc and screamed at me in the car after leaving a BBQ at his friends house. He said that I was making a fool of myself, etc and that I should tone it down). WOW! Over time, I “quieted” down and then we just stopped going places….he still went but I was not invited….he often told people that I was working/not interested in attending/sick/etc. I see now that is part of ISOLATING – wow! He ended up beating me violently one day before our 10th anniversary – I had miscarried a child and that was the day he would have been born. He attacked me (having hurt our dog the day before – I wish now I had known that he was escalating – I just thought it was very strange and scary but had no idea he was ramping up to what followed) and beat my head into the floor until I thought I would pass out. To this day, he denies that anything happened and told his brother (who was our neighbor and whose house I ran to as his wife was my friend) that I hit myself. I am not sure how I could have inflicted all the damage myself (he punched me in the mouth, the stomach, bent my glasses, threw me on the floor and bruised my thigh and then gripped my arms so tight there were bruises starting) but his brother believed him…..that was a sign that his whole family is abusive isn’t it? I was constantly anxious and realize now that my gut was aware he was dangerous and my body was reacting – my heart was trying to deny he was abusive though.
    2. Asks you to change jobs or careers, or even quit a job, because he wants you home (i.e. to control you), He didn’t do this – he wanted me to work and pay for things because he didn’t like to work. As long as I had an income, he had more freedom, and I guess he also knew where I was. I never knew where he was – he ran his own business so had lots of flexibility and opportunity to take off fishing/golfing/hunting….he made sure I never had any extra money for fun stuff but he always had cash in hand for unexpected outings with his friends……I was expected to be home when he got home though. He would go somewhere and tell me when he was coming back – he never came home on time though but I would wait for him….he wouldn’t call to say he was going to be late. I realized at some point how controlling/rude/disrespectful he was being and would just go do what I wanted. One day he came home on time, and I was not there – he called me screaming, and I said I would come right home but he said it was too late and he was going back out. He then refused to make plans with me since I couldn’t be on time, etc….classic!
    3. Is extremely jealous and accuses you of flirting with other men and lashes out when you have a simple conversation. Yeah, he did this (see party story in 1). I was friendly and he took that as flirting….as noted above, I tried to be “less” and it was a noticeable change…
    4. Constantly needs to know where you are, who you are with, and what you are doing (i.e. even time with girlfriends is monitored closely as if you are a his child). He didn’t really seem to care but again, he wanted me home when he said he was coming back. Those first years I didn’t have many friends since I had moved to his town…..developed friendships over the years and he ruined a few friendships by being rude to them.
    5.Puts you down, calls you names or criticizes you. YES! I was “f-ing B*tch” most of the time…
    6.Makes you feel like you can’t do anything right or blames me for problems. YES – he blamed me for so much that it became ridiculous. When his friend didn’t want to get up at 4am to go fishing, that was MY fault – he said that his friend thought I was a b*tch and that was why he didn’t want to do anything with my ex…..I was never rude to this friend so never knew what the problem was – tried to be friendly to him and he was rude to me. (I think now that my ex was telling his friend how awful I was and therefore, his friend hated me…but the 4am wakeup was likely the reason he was refusing the fishing trip!).
    7.Makes you feel like no one else would want you. YES – he called me fat when I was so skinny people who knew me thought I was anorexic and he made fun of my looks a lot. Of course, that makes you self-conscious and that spirals doesn’t it?
    8.Threatens to hurt you, your friends or family—but then says he was just ‘overreacting’. YES
    9.He checks your cell phone or email without permission. He never did this but at that time, I had no cell and he was technologically stunted….his porn addiction helped him become more proficient with the computer over time. He did read my journal though.
    10.You have changed your lifestyle, personality, hobbies and/or job because he asked you to, YES (see above).
    Thanks again for sharing your stories!

  33. Amy says:

    This is my first time posting on anything like this. I just entered therapy and am dealing with the mmy boyfriendny emotional and physically abusive relationships in my life. I am the child of two mental health professionals who was physically abused by my father and younger brother growing up and emotionally absued by my mother in sister. Not knowing how to set boundaries or stand up for myself, I have often found myself in various toxic relationships. I have kept people in my life as friends who have stolen thousands from my parents and bullied me with words. I had one beautiful relationship with the love of my life and let it be sabotaged by a friend who was so jealous of my happiness. She told me I had to choose between my best friend (her) and my boyfriend. She would invite people over to make fun of my boyfriend for being a nerd…which was the only thing they could find wrong with him. He was a sweet, educated, romantic man who would cook me dinner and bring me roses. Eventually my best friend drove a wedge between my boyfriend and I and we ended things.

    Flash forward several months and I am still heartbroken over the loss of a man I dated for 5 years and thought that I was going to marry. In comes “Brad” (not real name) who I literally meet in my living room via a roomate inviting him over. We hit it off immediately (or so I thought) and begin dating. My best friend/other roomate get jealous again that I have someone in my life and go nuts (years later this friend would be diagnosed with bipolar disorder) and stops paying rent, pge, and her share of the bills. I eventually have to evict her which ends our relationship (until just recently when we have been able to reconnect.).

    “Brad” is wonderful, almost perfect, and like me comes from an unstable family life hiding under the appearance of a normal professional family. Then he would get moody, and stop talking, or even sometimes say something sort of rude…but I obviously was just being too sensitive….

    Things went on fairly well for about a year and then JI noticed he really didn’t like me to go to school, or find a job, or hang out with my friends, or family, or do much else without him, actually. In fact, he would bot answer my calls when I did. Eventually, when he would pick up and we would see each other he would give me the silent treatment, threaten to break up with me, or sit me down and literally go through a list of everything that was wrong with me or he would go ob a tirade against whomever or wherever or whatever I was doing without him. I felt like everything was my fault, because why would someone who loved me try to hurt me. I guess I hadn’t realized how hurtful my actions of having a life separate from him were…

    Eventually, I stopped seeing my friends, stopped going to school, and didn’t see my family or do any of the things that used to make me, well, me.I was entirely isolated. He essentially moved into my place without paying rent as he was living at his parents (a fact he concealed from me for two years…he also lied about his age, telling me he was 28 when he was 32.) He would spend all my money, take my car, break ny things and replace them with his stuff until I had nothing left. Sometimes I would be trapped at home without my car, a phone, internet connection, or any food. I would eventually loose 30 pounds off of my already slim 110 pound frame. My hair fell out and walking up the stairs felt like an activity that would give me a heart attack. He would play mind games and deny when he would hurt me. I had no way to go to the dr. to get birth control or condoms, but he insisted with having sex with me, evew when I dekt so ill from lack of food. He got me pregnant and I knew I would nee subject a child to the misery that my life was then. I decided to get an abortion. He wouldn’t help with the medical bills because “he was already hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt and asking for help on luxury was insulting.” He made me feel like this was all my fault. I would stare out my window and cry all day.

    Eventually, I decided that it was him and not me that was the problem. I started to do little things for myself. J developed a small networks or people to go to and gradually made me escape. It took me about two years tk finally be free.

    I am still dealing with the emotions of the situation. I hope one day I will e able to let someone good into my life.

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