I sinned yesterday
I’ve received several emails after talking about drinking too much on New Year’s Eve. Many people wanted to know why I put myself in that situation and why I admitted being hungover.
Let me start by saying, that writing that post was difficult. In fact, I fought writing the post all day and woke up in the middle of the night and almost deleted it. I spent January 2nd worried about what people were thinking about me. What if they think this is who I really am? What if they don’t want to read my blog anymore?
Admitting our sin–not last year’s sin, not something that happened six months ago, not our habits before we knew Jesus–but yesterday’s sin is rarely done by Christians. I knew talking about my recent failure would make some people disappointed, but here’s why I did:
I think living by grace means telling our whole story, the dark side and the light one.
I know it’s easier to hide shortcomings in dark corners and stuff them in closets, but this doesn’t bring light into our own story or into the stories of others. This doesn’t show them Jesus.
I love what Thomas Merton says: “A saint is not someone who is good but who experiences the goodness of God.”
It seems we’ve accepted sharing our past sins, but not our recent ones. It’s common to admit our failures before we converted, got sober, got out of a relationship, found a church, met Jesus. But if you’re anything like me, you’re not admitting to your friends, “I sinned yesterday.” There’s shame in that statement.
I didn’t want to tell everyone that I drank too much on New Year’s Eve, but I also didn’t want to act like I have it altogether. I think it’s ok to admit failure. I don’t want you to have me on a pedestal or think that I never mess up. After reading my blog, I want you to see more of Jesus and this incredible, incredible love that He has given to you and me.
The more I hear from readers, the ones saying, “me too!”, “so glad I’m not the only one”, and “thank you for admitting this”, the more I realize how important it is to admit our shortcomings–because we must be become less for Him to become greater.
The best part about admitting failure is it gives the people around us the chance to see more of Jesus. It’s such a beautiful gift to know that Jesus picks us up when we fall, brushes the dirt off our faces, and says, “I forgive you. Carry on.”
Instead of wallowing and hiding in the shame of what happened yesterday, why not bask in the sweet grace that washes us clean? Why not share your secrets with those around you that they might see that more of this Jesus who came not for the flawless, but for people like you and me?
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