On loneliness and love

loneliness

  I rushed home after work to exercise before it was time to cook dinner. On my walk, I talked to a friend and the conversation shifted to loneliness and how it feels when friends and lists are not filling up our time, leaving us ragged. It seems everyone is too busy, too tired, too maxed out–but […]

Dad knows the way home

Dad with child

How can we get through unbearable pain? I remember thinking, “I will never get over this.” There was no way out. I didn’t care that people told me, “When God closes a door, he opens a window” or any other nice sayings that belonged in threads on a pillow, not something that was actually going to help. […]

Is God good?

Is God Good?

Questioning God’s goodness We have a chalkboard in our family room that for the past four months has stated, “God is a good Dad.” I originally wrote the phrase on the board because I felt my heart straying towards anxiety and fear instead of embracing the truth I’ve often fought to believe: God isn’t a […]

Wounded healer? Or truth zinger?

Photo Credit: ASU

She shared how her dad chastised her for not praying enough, listening to daily sermons, considering her ‘witness’ as she dressed each morning, among others. She was struggling with her self-worth and couldn’t find firm footing in her new faith. My dad has always been perfect and I spent four years drinking and partying and […]

God hasn’t forgotten you

God hasn't forgotten you

Michael and I are driving home. Biting rain is hitting the windshield, but we press on. As wind through the mountains of North Carolina, I close my eyes and pray about what to say. “What do people need to hear, Dad?” The rain drummed on, but I had my answer. “Remind them that I haven’t […]

When God gives her a husband and you’re still single

Bride and bridesmaid

Her email landed in my inbox just after 2am. “How could God give her a husband and not me?  I’ve gone home alone a million times when she went home with a guy. I’ve waited and saved myself for my husband and she hasn’t. She’s cleaned up her act recently but she’s only spent 6 […]

Speak up, even if your voice shakes

speak the truth, even if your voice shakes

I was finishing up my morning workout at the gym when he spotted me. It wasn’t normal, the way his eyes lingered and gazed up and down my body. I looked at the floor and focused on my workout. He approached me and I felt panicky and breathless, trying to brush away concern. There were […]

A Letter to Sexy-Instagram Posters

sexy selfie

  (This letter is in response to this controversial letter to a teenage girl from a mom who blocks sexy-posters her from her sons’ social media feeds. Dear Sexy-Instagram Poster, I see you. That feels like a good place to start. I see how you long to be beautiful, to be told you are beautiful. […]

a belated mercy

Hospital Waiting Room

There’s nothing quite like waiting at the hospital. The hurried nurses, the minutes that feel like hours, the sleeping loved ones slumped over in patterned chairs. The feeling of not knowing the outcome, the frenzied prayers, the walks down the hall to pass the time, the smells, the anxiety–all vaguely familiar, yet dreadful. Last week, […]

Why Don’t You Listen? | Questions We Ask God

Looking to Heaven

When I was twenty, I spent months praying one request repetitively, “God, if we are not mean to be, I pray you make him not ask me on any more dates. If he isn’t supposed to be my husband, I don’t want to move forward. Make it clear, please?” As a girl who was devastated […]